Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Thoughts of Emily's, lately... lol =0) with help of sissy... =0)

I was really bummed... I was trying to put some pictures on here of the Learning Center... but it wasn't working for some reason... I tried it a couple times, and I think it's just because my computer is too slow or something. =( I need to get Mom to get the high speed Internet from IDEA. Things have been pretty good lately. I guess it all depends on how you look at it. Last year I remember that I was complaining because I said it didn't really feel like Christmas. I wish I could just go back and smack myself... seriously. I had nothing to complain about, I had so many blessings. Friends, and family... people who were really close to me. I guess it's hard to explain all of what I had last year, that I don't have this year... but I know one thing for sure. I am not going to complain. I have blessings everyday, that I am realizing that I take for granted all the time. I seem to always look at what going wrong and try to fix it, by the end of it I am worn out, tired and emotional. Because it's usually not in my hands to change. If I have learned anything over the last two weeks, it's been... Life changes. You can't stop that. I might hate it, and cry about it, and wish with all my heart that things would go back to the way the were. It won't change anything. It doesn't help anyone. It makes the people around you feel bad for you, instead of you encouraging them and lifting them up. I am just starting to see how self-centered I have been. I would look at others, and see their selfishness... but why is it you can never see your own? Selfishness always starts with me simply skipping reading my bible... and little things like that. Then all the little things add up and you end up being so unhappy because you aren't doing what you as a Christian should be doing... Okay that's my serious thinking for the day. lol

Well, Kyle's little sister Sierra, is up here for Christmas... we have been having a blast. I love that little girl, she is so awesome. We stayed up last night until 3ish just talking, and goofing off, watching movies, and all sorts of random things. It was a blast. She is my little darling... and always will be. She is always making me want to do better, because I realize I am an example to her. What I do, what I say, and how I act effect her. Actually, I have been realizing that I have effected other people and haven't even known that I had... Thankfully in a good way... but it just makes you think. It's really scary actually some times.

As for Christmas shopping... I am so behind... I am still making a few gifts, and I still need to get a few things for immediate family. I try not to get all stressed out about it though, because it will ruin Christmas for you if you do.

Well, people... I haven't been posting lately, so I know I am no one to talk... but you all have got to start posting!! I miss reading about you all. =0) Even if it's just a little "I had a good day" Come on now... I know you all can do better!! lol
Alrighty, I LoOoOoOoOve you all!
Have the greatest, happiest, fantabulousiest, fatastictist, terrificest, wonderfuliest, supercalifrajilisticexpealadociousist day EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol :P (I did that with the help of Sissy =)

~Emily =0)